Dear Forever,
Netty was run over by a car just a few moments ago. I heard her yowl, but by the time any of us got to her, she was gone. I did not cry, but Simon did. And Mom did. I think I should have, but I only knew of Netty from two years ago. She never grew on me.
Mom says we are going to pick out a new pet tomorrow. Perhaps she wants to fill up the void left by Netty. This time Simon gets to name our new companion. I asked Mom if we could get two this time, just in case. She said, "I'll think about it."
I heard, from someone I do not know, that people keep pets because we are lonely, and nobody listens. Maybe it is true, but I do not know. But I do talk to Netty a lot, and I have heard Mom and Simon talk to her as well. They talk to her of things that they would never say to the other. Mom talks especially about my amnesia, but I have never stayed long enough to hear what she would say. Because if she is telling Netty about it, then it must have been something that she would not want me to know.
I guess what that anonymous person said had some thought in it. Netty alone probably knows more than anyone about any of us.
And now she's gone. Mom just called Dad about her passing. I wonder if Dad had shared anything with Netty as well.
Also, when I saw Netty sprawled by the sidewalk, something came to me. There was a lot of blood, and there were a lot of people shouting but I could not make out any words nor see anybody. It was nearly nightfall, and the sun was just beginning to sink into the horizon. I know this because where I was, I was facing the sunset. Some people pulled me into this dark box. The ambulance. And that was that. Just a short clip from the movie of my thirteen years.
I told Mom about it, and she had this strange look on her face. But then she smiled, and said she was glad. I wonder if Mom did not want my memories to return? If so, then why would she want such a thing? So I asked her if something was wrong, and she said no. "It's fine," she said, "Hopefully you will finally remember yourself."
There was something off-putting about the way she said it, but I did not ask her again.
I wonder if there is something Mom and Simon are keeping from me, that I am not supposed to remember? Do you know?
Cory
16 April 1999
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