Dear Forever,
I hear that a couple of students going to my school are planning a mass-murder. I don't know their names.

I wish I knew their reasons for planning such a thing. Maybe I knew them before. Maybe I didn't. I hear the other students calling them 'fags' or 'nerds' or some other condescending names. I don't like that, even though I am not the one they're saying such things to. Maybe it was because people kept calling them names that they wanted to kill everyone. I think I could have been their friends, if I knew them.

Christopher says he knew they would've done this sooner or later, but he wouldn't tell me their names. I don't know why, but I trust Christopher, so I didn't ask again.

I wonder if anyone had tried to really be friends with them? Maybe if they had more friends they wouldn't be doing such things.

Mom is still hopeful that I may regain my memories. She took out all the things that the past me use to like and asked me to look through them. It was the same as when I was just released from the hospital. Mom did that for a couple of months, but when my memories would not return she stopped.

I know that the past me never paid any interest to girls. Christopher told me so, but I know that because no girl has tried to form a relationship with me in those two years.

Anyhow, I still remembered nothing, so Mom took the things away. She says we will try again tomorrow. I dislike doing that, because nothing ever happens. I want to remember, but I dislike the pressure Mom gives me to do so.

Cory
14 April 1999


The 'mass murder' referenced here is the Columbine High School massacre which happened on 20 April 1999.

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